Break Your Shelf, Free Your Spirit
Stop trying to fix the Church’s truth crisis. It is time to clear the debris and live according to your true values and the beauty in your soul.
Welcome to the Wilderness
Faith Transition from the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints (or any fundamentalist-adjacent group) can feel like a game of survival: like you were dropped in the middle of a strange place and left to wander your way to safety or maybe die from poisonous berries along the way. In the middle of determining your new values, revising your parenting, and learning actual history or science, even grocery shopping can feel overwhelming. How do you find answers to all the questions echoing inside you?
“If I leave, where will I go?”
“Did I waste my life on a lie?”
“I can’t believe anymore, but I can’t imagine leaving either.”
“What will happen to my kids, my marriage, my family, if I tell them what’s happening?”
The good news is: your ability to ask these questions means you’re already on the way to finding answers.
The bad news is: nobody has a bulk discount on these answers. The challenge of your adventure now is finding…
embodied direction,
spiritual grounding that you can trust,
a vision of your new future
and an enjoyable way to make it happen.
It’s a significant task, but you’re not alone. And the bespoke life of meaning and pleasure you create on the other side of your Faith Transition is worth the effort.
My “Reinvestigation” of the Church didn’t go like I thought it would, either…
Hey, I’m Laura. My Faith Transition happened in 2020. I had a full Church Member resume at the time: BYU, mission, temple, kids, leadership, genealogy etc. I was determined to be faithful forever. But my spiritual awakening didn’t care about that. I was jostled awake from my Mormon dream and then spent months “re-investigating the Church.” My husband and I renegotiated everything from underwear, to parenting, to breakfast choices. (We had to call coffee “hot bean juice” for a full 3 months because it was so uncomfortable to say “coffee”–yeah, we were that indoctrinated.) Piece by messy piece, my husband and I constructed a new future–one built on integrity, curiosity, love for our kids, respect for our neighbors, and passion for the natural world. I now support women emerging from their chrysalis of Faith Transition. I also post on Youtube (@SortaMormon) about healing and integration after leaving high-demand groups.
What I Want For You:
Strong Relationships
Grounded Spirituality
Every Day Delight
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Laura has a warm presence that is nurturing and intuitive. If you’re seeking a Feminine Embodiment Coach to help you connect deeply to your wise body, I’d highly recommend working with Laura.
I feel so safe and impeccably cared for in Laura’s container. Her reflections are rich, nuanced, and woven with beautiful poetics and imagery. Working with her feels like having a magical guide journey me through my own personal mythology. I always leave our sessions feeling both charmed by the mystery of my life’s unfolding, and deeply rooted in my true essence. If you are looking for an adept guide to steward you through the journey of rewilding and reunion with the earth and the lands – she is your person!
You are not
too much, too loose, too bold, too rebellious, too educated, too selfish, too old, too young, too unworthy.
You are just ready for something new.
You have spent too many years dressing, talking, dreaming, and living, the story of someone else.
It’s your turn to spread your wings.
Where will you go?
The Origins of Laura’s Signature Offer:
The Embodied Woman’s Guide to Faith Transition
A 3-month, 1:1 Coaching Journey
Of all the pains caused by Faith Transition, one of the worst is the sensation of being torn apart by your past “faithful” self and your current self. I wrote in my journal in 2020 that it felt “like being forced to choose between my arms and my legs.”
It took me years to find my footing again and then to painstakingly re-grow some trust in my own spirituality. How could I trust what I wanted, what I believed, or even what I valued, when I had been so wrong about the Church? It was hard for me to know what was real, who was trustworthy, how to even plan for the future of my family because I had so little confidence in my own decisions after removing my co-dependence towards the Church.
I was also alone. My family didn’t want to talk. My in-laws were blaming me for ruining our family. Extended family was mostly quiet. My friends had stopped calling, not knowing how to help or what to say–one had burst into tears after telling me she read my Facebook posts and I was devastated too, knowing that I had written something that caused her pain. Other mentors, “wardies” and old neighbors all went silent and dropped quietly out of my life. One morning, 2 full years after we had decided to stop engaging with the Church, I confessed to a fellow Exmo that “I felt like I was still bleeding out” and had no way to staunch the flow of spiritual-emotional energy that was draining out of me daily. I was spiraling downwards and din’t know what to do about it.
Two months later, I found Feminine Embodiment Coaching (FEC)*. My first encounter was actually just an informational discovery call. 15 minutes of talking with this coach and I felt different. For the first time in years, I felt truly spiritually nurtured–and not in a cloying, MLM-ish, hidden-agenda kind of way. Her energy was clean, bright, warm, efficient. Even in that brief call I could tell that this was what I needed and jumped in. With FEC, my religious CPTSD and Faith Transition wounds were finally cleaned and tended. I found relief for the sensation of “bleeding out” and started to feel good again. As I returned to my body and softened my judgment towards myself I was also able to see a new version of my story. Instead of feeling deceived and helpless regarding my Church experience, my body reminded me of the clues she had been giving all along. When I had prayed for Moroni’s promise…when I had first visited the temple…when I first learned about the Church’s polygamy…hadn’t I felt the truth of my discomfort, even when I was earnestly trying to live that way?
Yes, I remembered. My body had been telling me all along. I had just forgotten how to listen.
My Signature Offer: The Embodied Woman’s Guide to Faith Transition supports women emerging from LDS Mormonism who want to trust the voice of their bodies again. Over 3 months, we will meet weekly in 60 minute sessions to soothe any wounds you carry, sensitize to your current experience, and reclaim the map in your heart to a free and meaningful future. Week by week, as you meet the tender wildness of your own body, the old shackles of who you “should” be will fall away. Duty will give way to delight, obedience to curiosity, and self-shame with self-love. By the end of our 3-month container, you will look different (maybe that light in your countenance isn’t so lost after all?) but more importantly, you will feel different. The fibers of your being will sing again. 😉
Of the souvenirs you take with you from Faith Transition, I hope that the feeling of “bleeding out” or self-resentment for “not figuring it out sooner” are not among them. Rage and grief are real and must be felt, but resentment and rumination are optional. You have so much sensual, unexpected, delightful life ahead of you–you don’t need to pour time into berating yourself for someone else’s lies.
Claim your place in this dance of rediscovery.
Fall in love with your life, again.
Follow your body’s wisdom through the Wilderness.
Let yourself be wild too.
You are only as limited as your faith. 😉
It’s not fear that gets in the way…it’s armor. It’s the behaviors we use to self-protect. We can be afraid and brave at the same time. But the armor suffocates courage and cages our hearts. The goal is to create space where armor is neither necessary nor rewarded. Stay awkward, kind, and brave.
Brené Brown
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